Mother’s Day

This year is my first Mother’s Day, and I never would have guessed what significance the day would hold this time last year. A year ago, a certain baby girl was due May 8th. I was praying, hoping, wishing that she would come in time for Mother’s Day. We even had family in town for Mother’s Day (aka waiting on her arrival). Unfortunately, the weekend came and went and no baby! We did celebrate that day as my “first” Mother’s Day. Brian gifted me one of my favorite maternity shots in a handmade frame, and it was beautiful. Vera decided to join us May 16th…5 days after Mother’s day.

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Now, a year later, I can’t even believe what a journey motherhood has been so far. I thought I would try to put it in to words as best I can, but it’s just not going to be easy for me to express what my heart knows.

Motherhood is…

Life-altering

It’s the weirdest thing to go from waiting one day for the unknown (this baby) to BAM! You’re a mommy! You gotta learn how to do everything in a moment. And I knew nothing. Yes, I read lots of books. Talked to lots of people. Researched for hours on end. Took a class. But I had no idea how clueless I would be. I had no self-confidence in how to be a mommy. Thank goodness Brian got me through those first few weeks because he was a whole lot braver than me. I should have known that the change would be hard on me because that’s just my personality. I don’t do change well. I have to have an adjustment period. I would honestly say that it took me well over six months to adjust to motherhood. I spent the first 6 months totally overwhelmed, confused, and stressed. Happy but stressed.

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Stressful

I admire these mommies that seem to live in baby bliss. Sweet sleepy pleasant babies. But that wasn’t my reality and still isn’t. And I can not fake that it is. I have never known the stress levels I’ve had since Vera. She would cry for hours on end. (And still does every once and awhile) I would frantically be trying everything while crying and praying. She is picky as all get out over food. Some days are successful and other days she just eats baby puffs. She unfortunately got her mommy’s eating habits! Bedtime sucks around here. We’ll have a month of good then two months of bad. (And yes, we’ve done CIO and every other approach under the sun) An hour nap is as long as they get. She is particular and clingy, but also the sweetest thing you’ve ever seen!

Sweet

Vera has the ability to light up a room (and melt her mommy’s heart). She gets beyond excited to see me. She buries her head in my chest and just hugs me tight. She smiles and squeals and screams at everyone…as long as I’m close by. She has the best sense of humor and knows when she’s being funny. She has a very big personality. She is gentle and loving with other babies/kids. She is an eager observer of people and animals. She LOVES her kitties! She gives them “pat pats” and cuddles with them on the floor. I could list out the hundred ways she makes me smile everyday, but I won’t. I’ll just say that it is nothing short of miraculous watching her grow into her own tiny person.

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Amazing

It really is incredible to watch this tiny newborn evolve into a bubbly one year old. All the “firsts” are so fun to witness and just take you by such surprise even though they are an obvious part of growth. They just naturally figure things out and you think, “My gosh, you are so clever!” We are getting so close to words and steps over here. When we do, I feel like we are walking out of infancy into toddler. And even though I was just complaining about the toughness of having a baby, it makes me really sad to see her getting older!

Oh I guess I’ll throw out a few more adjectives…demanding, messy, exhausting, joyous, caffeinated, funny. Okay, I’ll stop there. Best way to put it is that motherhood touches on every feeling that you never knew you had. So thanks to Vera for breaking me in! It has been a crazy, tough, but totally WORTH IT ride!

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Continue Reading on May 9, 2015 in About Moi

A Sunny Surprise

So these past few days have been awesome…sunny, in the 70′s…in January! Definitely helps with those winter blues. Vera and I have tried to soak it up while it lasts. This is just a little life update because I know it’s been forever since I’ve shared anything! I was inspired to pop over here and write something when I got a domain renewal notice. I still have an inner struggle with “to blog” or “not to blog”. I guess this is my way of trying again, so we will see… But here’s a little sunshine fun for now!

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Continue Reading on January 29, 2015 in Uncategorized

Salvaged Mantle

I’m really excited to show off Brian and I’s most recent project. We have been planning on making a faux mantle in our bedroom for awhile now. There is this strange little area of tile where a gas fireplace used to be, but the previous owner pulled it out because it wasn’t properly vented. Unfortunately, we can’t afford to re-do flooring yet. (I’m wanting to run hardwoods throughout and that ain’t cheap!) So we are left with the design predicament of trying to make those weird tiles look purposeful.

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This past winter we got an electric fireplace with the plans of eventually adding a mantle above it. Fast forward til now and my plans finally started to fall into place. Last weekend, we went shopping at Verdigris just for fun, and I came across the perfect corbels. I had been trying to keep my eye out for an antique mantle or architectural pieces that could be repurposed and there they were! They were perfectly chippy and a subtle green color. I could envision them topped off with a rustic beam or shelf.

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Then, our misfortune of an old fence falling apart turned into a fortunate event because we were able to re-use the fence panels to create a rustic mantle. So I got this and THIS out of the deal! My husband is so handy…he just whipped both of these out like it was nothing.

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Once my mantle was hung, I got to do the fun stuff and style it up. I simply took things from around the house to create the vignette. The only thing I had to purchase was something interesting yet simple to fill the space beneath the mantle. So I headed off to my other favorite antique store, The Rink. And oh the luck! I found a cool, rusty ceiling tile on sale for a whopping $9 bucks!

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The starting point for my mantle design was a sepia toned painting from Guatemala. I added a vase, basket and, bowl to add some height and weight. The bowl was tricky because it didn’t really stand alone very well, so I added a tree slab to give it more substance. Then, I layered in croquet balls, tiny terra-cotta pots, and driftwood pieces to lend more movement to the space. To complete the moment, I added some fresh greenery with a succulent plant and a personal touch with a photograph to the top of the fireplace.

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I just love how it turned out. It totally changed the feel of our room. We have a big space so it’s nice to add something substantial to cozy it up. I can’t tell you how awesome it feels to complete any project with a newborn at home…a diy mantle or just the laundry. Doesn’t matter. So satisfying!

Continue Reading on June 28, 2014 in DIY, Interior Design

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